It wouldn’t be quite right to say that I have the Holiday Blues. I don’t feel quite “blue”… closer to “meh.” So I suppose I have the Holiday Mehs. Work is overwhelming right now, to the point where I have had to cancel most of my vacation days over the next two weeks just to get things done, so I’m missing that giddy vacation feeling. Meanwhile, with so much uncertainty in our lives right now, we decided not to have a Christmas tree this year, so it’s easy to forget that the holidays are even happening.
I’m big on Christmas usually, not so much in the Santa “ho ho ho” way and certainly not in a religious way, but there’s a very special kind of joy for me in warm people, beautiful music, and pretty lights that makes me treasure this time of year. Usually. I guess I’m just not feeling it this year and I have this horrible fear that somehow it might be dead for me forever. I hope not. I don’t know. Maybe I expect too much from adult life.
Perhaps more irksome than all of this is that the stress of work and everything else has killed my ability to focus on the work I want to be doing most. The last week has been appallingly unproductive and I fear there’s more of that to come.
In better news, The Blizzard of 2009 barely touched us here in western MA which means little to no snow shoveling! This probably seems like a small blessing, but honestly it feels huge. Thank you, weather!
Let’s hope I can catch some holiday cheer over the next few days. Got any to spare?